Friday, December 26, 2008

My Belated Christmas Present. . .

BFP!!!!!


We are in complete shock! It really hasn't sunk in yet. I find it hard to believe I'm writing a post like this.

Our beta was this morning. I knew I wanted to come home and POAS. I needed to find out myself before a random nurse broke the news to me. DH and I were so nervous. We just held each other for those excruciating three minutes. The pee stick has never been a friend of mine, and I just couldn't fathom how this time would be any different. We held hands on our way to check and neither of us really wanted to look. When we finally did, we were in disbelief! I still am. I walked around the house for about 20 minutes with that thing in my hand just staring at it. (DH kept asking me when I was going to put it down. He was also a tad grossed out that my pee stick came dangerously close to his face whenever I tried to hug him. )

I was pleased the line was so dark, but I was going to hold out for the beta number. The nurse just called. My 1st beta is 324! That sounds kind of high. She said she'd be happy with anything over 50. That's a big number to double. I hope it continues to rise.

There are so many things I could worry about, fixate on, obsess over. I made a conscious decision before these results to try to enjoy every minute of this for what it is; to try not to preoccupy myself with all the hurdles to come. It will be hard, but I will try.

Today is a good day!

15 comments:

PJ said...

YAY!!!! Can you hear me yelling from Virginia???!!!!

That IS a very dark line!

I had my pee sticks on the bathroom counter for about five days, before I moved them to the bathroom drawer. I don't know if I'll ever be able to part with them!

That's a really strong beta!

Yes, don't obsess. I obsessed and I think I caused myself a lot of undue stress.

CONGRATS! I'm so happy for you!

Clio said...

This is great!!!!
congratulations.
may the numbers double and double...
:)

Ashley said...

I've been following your blog...I am SOOOOO very happy for you:) It is definately a Christmas MIRACLE!! Enjoy every minute of it:)

Annie said...

MERRY FREAKIN CHRISTMAS. SO HAPPY FOR YOU. My hubby also grossed out about pee sticks near the face. Oh so much more grossness in his future:)

Shanny said...

Woohooo, congratulations! What a perfect present =)

Emily said...

OMG!!!! This is AMAZING news! Merry Christmas to you! I am so happy for you!!!!

C'mon beta doubling!!!

Woooo-hooooooooo!!!!!!!!!!

'Murgdan' said...

Congrats! That's wonderful news! What a pretty pee stick :-)

Melody said...

I've been following your blog and I am SO excited for you! I know what those 2 lines mean to someone who's tried for so long! Congrats!!!!

Celia said...

What glorious news!

G said...

CONGRATULATIONS!!!!!

Sending you excited hugs all the way from Australia!!!!

Lost in Space said...

Wow, now that is some Christmas present!! Congratulations, hun!! I am so happy for you.

That is a great first beta and I hope the 2nd is even better!!

Kristin said...

Congrats!!!

Mary said...

Oh! How wonderful! I'm so happy for you and your husband. Is it starting to sink in yet or are you still walking around in shock:)

Chhandita said...

oh I love BFPs...Congratulations...

Straubles said...

This is so wonderful! Congrats and hoping all goes well for you!