Wednesday, January 7, 2009

I'm an over-anaylzer. Are you?

First of all, I've been tagged! Thanks Brenda

Now, the way this works, is I answer the following questions with single word responses, and pass the award on to 7 other bloggers:

1. Where is your cell phone? Purse
2. Where is your significant other? Work
3. Your hair color? Brown
4. Your mother? Sensitive
5. Your father? Calm
6. Your favorite thing? Relaxing
7. Your dream last night? Strange
8. Your dream/goal? Mommy
9. The room you're in? Guestroom
10. Your hobby? Computer
11. Your fear? Fire
12. Where do you want to be in six years? Happy
13. Where were you last night? Home
14. What you're not? Easy-going
15. One of your wish list items? Baby
16. Where you grew up? California
17. The last thing you did? Work
18. What are you wearing? PJs
19. Your T.V.? On
20. Your pet? Rudy
21. Your computer? Great
22. Your mood? Overwhelmed
23. Missing someone? DH
24. Your car? Honda
25. Something you're not wearing? Shoes
26. Favorite store? Old Navy
27. Your Summer? Disappointing
28. Love someone? DH
29. Your favorite color? Red
30. When is the last time you laughed? Today
31. Last time you cried? Today

Now, I've read a lot of blogs and I think everyone has already done this one. If you haven't come and join in all the fun!

Meanwhile, I've been having trouble following my plan to relax and enjoy this pregnancy. I have been driving poor DH nuts with my questioning of every symptom. Mainly I don't like all the sensations that go on in the abdomen area. I know there is a lot going on in there, but please. I analyze all of it. There's no escaping it. It's a constant 24/7 thing. I am waaaaaaaaay to in tune with my body.
My biggest concern was that my right ovary has been tender since after retrieval and has been getting worse. The sensations come and go. Sometimes it is a sharp pain and other times a dull ache. I am trying not to worry about an ectopic pregnancy (I love to imagine myself in the worst case scenario. Healthy huh?). The pain is not any worse than when I ovulate, but I don't like it. I broke down and called Nurse Long Pause. She didn't skip a beat this time and sounded bored. She said the ovary was stimulated more than usual for retrieval. You initially feel better after ER and then if you get pregnant, you start to feel many of the same symptoms you felt during stimming because your estrogen is rising again (especially thanks to the estrace I take three times a day). That made sense to me but I asked her about an ectopic anyway and she said "Oh you'd know. We wouldn't be having a conversation like this." Hmmm. . . I guess I'll find out Monday.
(If you have something very scary to say on this topic, please refrain. I can't take the added stress. If however, you have had similar issues or words of encouragement, then comment away.)
I love DH. He has been so excited. He is a realist like myself, but he is trying to enjoy this happy time. I need to find a way to join him. I will get there.
I will, I will, I will. . .


Mimi said...

You are just fine!!! How exciting, you will get to see your baby soon!!!! Congratulations!


Anonymous said...

Over-analyzing... all the time! I think its a disease that all IFers are subject to. I really hope that everything is alright. BTW, when is your first u/s?

Lost in Space said...

IF programs us to over-analyze. Sending hugs and can't wait to hear about your appointment on Monday. One step at a time. You will get there.

Melody said...

It is SO normal! When I was about 16 weeks (I was already huge by the way)... I sat at my overhead teaching for the first 3 class periods. Then, I couldn't move b/c of the cramp. I called my DH who I NEVER call in situations like this b/c he gets WWWAAAAAYYYYY to freaked out and told him we HAD to see the doctor. It was JUST a cramp. Baby was great, perfect heartbeat, perfect in every way (and she still is) just like yours will be! Please don't worry! Also, I had some REALLY mean nasty lady tell me that if I worried I would miscarry... ALSO a DUMB lie! So, don't listen to anyone who says that either! Sorry to ramble. School starts at 7:45 and we have to be here by 7:15 and I have NOTHING to do to get ready today, lol. But remember, you are FINE and I'm saying a little prayer for you RIGHT NOW!

Jill said...

First of all, I know it's a little late, but I really like your bridesmaid pic from a few weeks ago! Great photo!

Secondly, I hope everything looks great at your appt. on Monday. I know just how excited, anxious, overwhelmed you feel. Just try to hang in there. I've been told only time makes us infertiles feel better about our pregnancies.

Wishing you lots of luck!

Melody said...

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I still have my old one but this one is new today.

Emily said...

I am such an over analyzer as well. It's a sickness!

Sorry your ovary is sore - I was thinking it was exactly what your nurse said - check me out with my degree from Dr. Google University ;)

Thinking of you!

Clio said...

you need to find healthy distractions. In many traditional philosophies they say that "energy follows thought". So, the more you pay attention to any little thing your body does, the more you feel every twinge. Your body is accomodating to a huge change, something it never experienced before. Trust that your body is doing the right thing and go with it. :)
GL on your appt Monday.
take care

Ashley said...

That is exactly what I'm going to do if I ever get pregnant!! I'm sure you are FINE!! I can't wait for you to post Monday...try to add a pic of your little bean. I'm soo excited for you:)

Shanny said...

I'm sure you are just fine, its just hard not to wonder what each and every symptom is. or why it happens. or when it should happen. or how many women experienced it... at exactly how many weeks and days. Us overanlyzers never know when to stop, hope you don't stress yourself too much though, and I'm sorry you are feeling so sore =(

Keep us updated on your very healthy pregnancy!

Julie said...

I had the same sensations, esp. on my right side, in the beginning. I hardly ever felt anything on my left side. Sometimes it even felt like a sharp pain. It eventually subsides. Overall, I had fairly regular cramping as if AF was going to come. It wasn't terrible pain, but just enough to make me think the worst. I'm starting my 2nd trimester now and still have an occasional cramp. Everything with the baby appears normal, so try not to worry too much. I know, easier said than done. I'm an over analyzer too. It's hard not be with an IVF pregnancy. Best of luck!