It was harder to do than I thought.
Most people had suspected it and all of them were of course so happy for me. I only told three of the ones I felt most comfortable with about my IVF. I am not keeping it a secret, I just felt like it was a little all at once to tell my story over and over again to each person. I will slowly let people know what I went through. This was enough for one day.
I brought an u/s pic so I could just show them and they'd know. It felt too awkward to announce it out loud. It still doesn't seem real. I'm not sure when it will. . . I always think, maybe after the next doctor's appt, maybe after the next u/s, maybe after I get even bigger.
The feelings that come with pregnancy after IF are most definitely unique.
One of our office secretaries (with two grown kids) asked how long I've been trying. She's the only one who asked. I said it wasn't easy and we'd been trying for awhile. She held up her fingers and told me they tried for four years. I instantly felt a bond with her I've never had before. I confided how strange (and wonderful) it felt to finally be pregnant. She nodded her head and said that you never forget how it feels to hurt like that.
It made me realize how many people that we see everyday struggle, or have struggled, with IF and we never know. It can be such a silent battle. It was for me for a long time. So much so that even now it is hard to come out with all of it, but I really feel that's what needs to be done. Especially when all people hear about IF or IVF comes from the media and quacks who have 14 children.
I'll end on a sweet note.
Last night DH was sitting on the couch. When I walked by he grabbed me, pulled up my sweater and kissed my belly. I almost started crying. I know how much he wants this now. I think it took our IF for him to truly realize it. That is one of the good things that came out of all of this.